Tuesday, December 22, 2009

So accomplished

Look what I remembered how to do from our 5th grade Excel tutorials! A graph! That's right, I made it meself. Since it's almost the end of the year, I've been thinking back over how 2009 has gone for me personally. I decided to quantify the year in terms of my stress level and voila, this tidy graph was born:Fortunately the level never rose to 10, which would have meant me packing my bags and moving home and hanging out with Ben & Jerry for quite some time. That would have happened come the end of August, after a summer of interviews and job rejections and not having any money to pay my rent. Fortunately, that crisis was averted.

And looky, I'm ending up at the same level as I started the year. Guess that's because this question still hasn't left my mind: What I am doing with my life?? Though honestly I feel better about it now than I did 12 months ago. What I'm really stressed about now is getting home for the holidays. I'm crossing my fingers I will arrive absurdly early at the airport only to find all the whinings about airport security lines have been greatly exaggerated, and then I will sit around waiting for my flight in restless boredom. The one time boredom is preferred over all else!

So yes, admire my mad Excel and Paint skills, and feel free to speculate on the highs (STRESS!) and lows (CALMMMM) that was my 2009.

Monday, December 14, 2009

China, China, Maine

If I posted reviews about the books I have read, would anyone read/care? Well this here post is a trial to see what would happen, based on the last three books I have read in the last month. [Note: FTC disclosure or whatever: I got these books from the library. And my mom. And no one told me to write about them. The end.]


Over Thanksgiving break, while I sat in the airport as my flight was delayed and delayed and delayed, I finished this little lighthearted romp. Just kidding (not about the flight delay). It was mad depressing. And yet it had a happy and touching ending, so I guess that made up for the 300 pages of heartbreak and physical abuse and soul crushing soul-crushingness? Hmmm... Not really.

Of course the majority of the novel is set during the Chinese-Japanese war and the subsequent take over of the Communists, so it's bound to be hard times for everyone. But most particularly for Winnie, who is married to this UTTERLY MALEVOLENT man and he is so horrible to her that she has to hide her entire past from her daughter, who has grown up in the States and therefore led a completely different life than anything her mother experienced. Thus the silence and the tension, which Winnie decides to break and then boy does she let it all pour out. I think I liked this better than the Joy Luck Club because it was easier to follow and more detailed with just one narrative, but on the other hand it does kind of drag with all the TERRIBLE DEPRESSINGNESS at times.

Let's move on to another tale of China, this one about underpants. That's right. One Kiwi journalist decided to make it his personal mission to travel to China and search out the factories/people/companies that really make up all the components of a single pair of underpants, bought in the Western world but made in China (duh). He falls into the same traps that all journalists do when they write a singular nonfiction work about China: he throws in as much modern Chinese history as possible, even though he has never really studied China except to write this book. Oh well, I just skim over all that because a) I already know it and b) I'd rather just read about the underpants.

So there are some funny bits in here about his struggles with chopsticks and complete lack of mastery over the Chinese language, but most of it just serves as a reminder for how much the Western world (yes ok fine I am extrapolating him to represents all Westerners) just doesn't get China. And doesn't really try to, for that matter. And even when they try, they mostly fail. I enjoyed this book because at least the author is self reflective and realizes these patterns, and comes away with a great deal more respect for the Chinese than he went in with (sort of... since basically he went in with a base prejudicial fear (again, like most Westerners)). Anyway it just made me want to read Factory Girls and get the real dirt on how Chinese workers live out their lives in factory conditions. Oh and it made me want to go back to Shanghai and eat.

Lastly: about as far from China as you can get. Mom gave this to me for the plane ride back to NY but I ended up making it my subway read this week. And got done with it much quicker than anticipated, due to be stuck on the train for 2 HOURS one night on the way home from work. Gahhhhh.

Anyway, what Mom shouldn't have told me was that the author originally wrote a bunch of short stories, realized there was a reoccurring character in these stories, and then decided to string them together into a novel. Because that's all I could think of as I read this! And I like novels and I like short stories (sometimes) but I don't like short story collections masquerading as novels. So I was ultimately left wanting more. Like, if you name your novel after a character then s/he better be all over that novel. (I had this problem with Oliver Twist and now it will never go away). And the chapters I most enjoyed were the ones with Olive... so why was her story interspersed with all these other stories of random people that I didn't care about and who never reoccurred? It kind of disrupted my reading. They all had similar themes of misunderstood relationships and lots of emotional anguish (all very well written, so it was enjoyable to read even though it was quite sad) but sometimes I was just like, meh I could've done without that chapter.

Oh and DON'T READ THE READING GROUP STUFF AT THE END. Why is that there? Obviously any reading group that selects this novel is going to be savvy enough to think of their own discussion questions, and laugh at the silly suggestions in the back. So, fail on Random House. And I'm still conflicted about the format of this one, so overall not a 5/5.

If you've made it this far, congratulations, you get a fingertag. Also you get my advice to watch Community, even though I just referenced 30 Rock. Go! You will not be disappointed, especially by the holiday episode. And in conclusion: I should probably read some happy novels now. Feel free to buy me something humorous for Christmas.

Wednesday, December 9, 2009

Christmastime means

goodies in the workplace, I've discovered! So far we have brownies and Harry and David treats courtesy of our wonderful clients. Oh man, I'm starting to like this aspect of December. But all the presents serve as a reminder that I still need to buy gifts FOR EVERYONE. Gah I am behind. No worries, I have plans to attend a sample sale and scope out a bookstore tonight, so hopefully I will get some people crossed off my list.

I honestly did not realize that December is almost already over... kinda. But it's going by fast and that means the year is almost over and that means the DECADE is almost over and I totally didn't grasp that fact until like a week ago. Well the first decade of every century is bad, right? I'm crossing my fingers it only get better from here, meaning that all areas in life improve, for everyone! That's not an impossible wish, right? Let's start with the publishing industry getting back on its feet and embracing change (aka the digital age), and I'm sure others will follow (ie healthcare reform, employment rates, environmental protection etc). I am optimistic and slightly terrified. Optimistically terrified.

Is it too early for New Year's resolutions? I figure the earlier I commit to them and starting putting them into practice, the better off I'll be. So hear goes:
1. Be healthier. [Except not during the holidays, they don't count. I'll stop eating cookies in January, I swear.]
2. Write more.
3. Be less of a Grandma. [This is for Cynthia and may be difficult to accomplish during the months of January and February, when all I want to do is hibernate. But I promise to make an effort.]

That's good enough for now, right? I mean if the list gets too long it's just impractical, so I'll stick to these and really focus on them. Although now that I think about it, #3 might actually be a direct contradiction to #1... hmmmm.... we shall see.

Friday, December 4, 2009

Friday, right before lunch

seems like a good time to update. So how has my week been? In terms of health: terrible! Somehow (flu shot + plane ride = my theory) I came down with a head cold Monday night and have been fighting it all week. Luckily last night I discovered that vodka is a good remedy, and today I am feeling much better. Just kidding. But not really.

Explanation: last night we had cocktails after work and I had a little bit of vod mixed with lots of mixers. And I had a cup of tea. And then this morning I could actually get out of bed without feeling like death. So take that, head cold. Also Dayquil, you fail.

Backing up a day-- on Wednesday night there was the tree lighting ceremony at Rockefeller Center. Naturally, I got out of here as fast as possible and retreated to the warmth of a friend's apt to watch the show on TV. Which was much better because it meant not standing in the cold and rain pressed up against 100,000 tourists (allegedly... I don't know how 100,000 people could actually fit in the space around the rink here). And we ate turkey! Kwangs decided to treat us to Thanksgiving v2.0 and it was quite delicious. Unfortunately it did not prove to be the cure for the common cold. Andddd I might have infected J. Oops.

The other thing I wanted to rant about is books. Mainly this week's bestselling books. Now, I missed the lists from last week on account of leaving early for the holidays but I think that was a good thing, because otherwise I would have gone home in a funk about not only the stupid airlines (delayed of course >:( !!) but also about women writers today. That's right, I'm talking to you Stephenie Meyer and Sarah Palin! Somehow they are both allllll over the best seller lists and it just makes me sad. I want to be proud of women writers (esp after the whole PW best books of 2009 debacle) but I just... can't be happy for these two. Sarah Palin is... Sarah Palin and I don't even know where to begin. Stephenie Meyer has, in my opinion, created one of the worst female protagonists in modern literature and yet young girls eat her crap up! Obviously this is because of her stunningly perfect male protagonist but COME ON. How hard have women worked to get to a point where we are respected as smart, strong, independent etc and then along comes this Twilight mess. Basically: bad writing + misogynistic storyline = feminist fail. Whyyyy Stephenie Meyer and general female public whyyyy.

Ok rant over. Now I would like to praise the weather for being so not-Decemberish the past couple days. Please stay just the way you are. 50 degrees is a perfectly acceptable winter temperature, thanks.